Did you see the desperation in my eyes

Did you see the loss of light

Completely devoid of life

When you walked away

When you stopped choosing me

Why did you hate me so ferociously

I stared at myself in the mirror

I laid paralyzed on the kitchen floor

I laid maimed on my closet floor

Frozen

Shaking

Screaming

Folded into a body I didn’t recognize any more

Did you see it

You must be lost

I drew you maps back to me

You never came

I begged

I pleaded

I left myself to get closer to you

Chasing you through a maze that you escaped

Choking on my own breath

My eyes swollen shut

My own body making itself stop crying

Like turning the faucets off

But not before draining all the lines

I flashed back through it all

I flashed back to see the love

To remember it was there

Did you see it

It sent me into a new spiral

Why

How could everything hurt

Yet I thought that I was dead

Voice hoarse

Muscles atrophied

Did you see it

Did you see it

KW