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No Cedar High School graduation this year. Beck should have graduated with all of his buddies a couple weeks ago. Class of 2026 Instead, I said my congratulations to the boys that loved him so. Watched their graduation ceremony virtually and felt really proud of the adults these kids have become. I displayed graduation announcements…
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Feels like living in a time warp. I go right back to 2021. I can’t sleep tonight. Too many recycled thoughts that just won’t put themselves to bed. I work to so hard to be so many things. But no matter how hard I try to get out of this sadness, it always finds its…
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If you are or have ever been a single mom… you’ve done the most. The hardest. These days, it’s hard for me to call myself a single mom, because I have a partner now. And while we still are splitting our time a bit, he’s always here for me and my beautiful babies. In every…
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About to close some very big chapters in the next month or so. Finally. It’s emotional and scary and exciting all together. I thought I would be flooded with relief. Maybe once I cross the threshold I will. But for now, it feels like walking into the unknown. All the secret battles hidden in the…
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It’s almost Valentines. Everyone has their own opinion on the holiday. I’ve shifted my views throughout the years but one thing stays the same… I love love and I love big. I also just love holidays. An excuse to celebrate (even if it’s rooted in the sacrificing of goats)… count me in! Valentines Day can…
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new me. NOT! Hah! I don’t want to be a new versionnnnn (insert whining). I’ve worked really hard on this one. She’s one of my favorites. I hope she sticks around for a really long time. Let’s be real, she’s always evolving. I’ve been 1000 different women, one of the few poems I’ve memorized and…
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It’s December now. I spent most of November getting back into the flow of things and I decided to start Christmas early. I’ve always been very anti-Christmas until AFTER Thanksgiving. Unpopular opinion: I hate Christmas music. It’s only acceptable on Christmas Day and I guess Christmas Eve too (insert eyeroll). I love Christmas, don’t get…
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If I repeat myself, it’s because it’s important to me. I also have a shit short term memory. And last, the more I say it, the more I process it. Exactly 3 years ago today, I got up around 7am and checked my ex and Beck’s location on Life360. It looked like they were still…
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Feels like the longest month. It only seems right to take this long month and keep writing about Beck. He is so heavy on my heart. I think about him all day, every day. I can hear his voice in my head and I feel so extremely grateful to have that to draw on whenever…
