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Feels like living in a time warp. I go right back to 2021. I can’t sleep tonight. Too many recycled thoughts that just won’t put themselves to bed. I work to so hard to be so many things. But no matter how hard I try to get out of this sadness, it always finds its…
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If you are or have ever been a single mom… you’ve done the most. The hardest. These days, it’s hard for me to call myself a single mom, because I have a partner now. And while we still are splitting our time a bit, he’s always here for me and my beautiful babies. In every…
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About to close some very big chapters in the next month or so. Finally. It’s emotional and scary and exciting all together. I thought I would be flooded with relief. Maybe once I cross the threshold I will. But for now, it feels like walking into the unknown. All the secret battles hidden in the…
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It’s almost Valentines. Everyone has their own opinion on the holiday. I’ve shifted my views throughout the years but one thing stays the same… I love love and I love big. I also just love holidays. An excuse to celebrate (even if it’s rooted in the sacrificing of goats)… count me in! Valentines Day can…
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new me. NOT! Hah! I don’t want to be a new versionnnnn (insert whining). I’ve worked really hard on this one. She’s one of my favorites. I hope she sticks around for a really long time. Let’s be real, she’s always evolving. I’ve been 1000 different women, one of the few poems I’ve memorized and…
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It’s December now. I spent most of November getting back into the flow of things and I decided to start Christmas early. I’ve always been very anti-Christmas until AFTER Thanksgiving. Unpopular opinion: I hate Christmas music. It’s only acceptable on Christmas Day and I guess Christmas Eve too (insert eyeroll). I love Christmas, don’t get…
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If I repeat myself, it’s because it’s important to me. I also have a shit short term memory. And last, the more I say it, the more I process it. Exactly 3 years ago today, I got up around 7am and checked my ex and Beck’s location on Life360. It looked like they were still…
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Feels like the longest month. It only seems right to take this long month and keep writing about Beck. He is so heavy on my heart. I think about him all day, every day. I can hear his voice in my head and I feel so extremely grateful to have that to draw on whenever…
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Did you see the desperation in my eyes Did you see the loss of light Completely devoid of life When you walked away When you stopped choosing me Why did you hate me so ferociously I stared at myself in the mirror I laid paralyzed on the kitchen floor I laid maimed on my closet…
